Teeth

Noteeth

Expectant fathers feel many anxieties – and make a huge number of promises to their unborn children. A new life pulses with incredible potential, and necessitates deep self-reflection. Which experiences from my own life do I want my child to enjoy? Which frustrations and pains should he or she be spared at all costs, and which did I learn from? High on my list: Teeth. Continue reading

Mourning

When one of my best friends died in her late twenties, it was different. I had been deeply upset when my grandparents died, but my mind had been able to process it somehow – it was their turn, a wounding rite of passage that was inescapable, natural. Death out of turn, against the rules, felt torturously unfair. Mourning my friend, helping to carry her coffin at the funeral, failing to manage the choking wretchedness of it. These defining moments of pain made everything different. Continue reading

Improvisation: A union of mind, body and music

Improvising on the saxophone has transformed my life forever. It has awakened me to a completely new level of spirituality – hard words for me to type, as a rationalist. Improvisation is a religious revelation. It is meditation, red mist and the soul. Playing music without a plan showed me the full dignity of the human consciousness and the hot power of the mind. It made me question everything that had gone before, and opened up unlimited possibilities for everything that lay ahead. It very nearly never happened. I want to share my story, and my elation, about how it did. Somebody showed me how. Continue reading

Sharing my writing

My name is Matty Bannond, and I write fiction and comment. I’ve decided to share my writing more — and to engage more with other writers. I hope this will give me opportunities to get feedback from different kinds of people, and help me to improve.

I’d be very grateful for any comments or feedback.